Not The Best

Today was... okay.

I mean, the day isn't over. Tonight I plan to exercise for at least 30 minutes (despite having absolutely no energy), and clean the hell out of my room. And I've been trying to find my laundry cards to do laundry, but I guess the room-cleaning will have to come first, so I can unearth them from the mess.

You know what all this means, don't you? Roommate went home!
The worst part about Roommate besides her eating is the thermostat. She seems to think it's okay to put it as high as it goes, to 30 degrees Celsius! So then I'm always burning. And I don't want to be awful and turn it down to 15, where I like it, so I turn it to 20 or 25, somewhere in the middle to please us both. But before I know it, she's blasted it back up to 30 again.

But when she's gone, I can do whatever the hell I want with it! Hooray!
When I'm thin, I'll be cold more often, so it will be okay to have it be warm. But for now, I need it cold.

My weight today was really exciting. 148.8! Which means I've passed GW1! Congratulations to me.

Although I'm a bit concerned about my health.

I slouch all the time, for two reasons:

1) I have a spinal deformity so my back muscles are quite weak and it's exhausting to stand up straight for even a few minutes. But then slouching makes them more weak. Catch 22!!!
2) I think I have a blood pressure problem or something? If I'm sitting and slouching, all is well. If I sit up, I get spots in my eyes and feel dizzy. If I stand up and slouch, I'm dizzy for a minute but then it goes away. If I stand up straight, my vision goes crazy and I can barely see and there are spots in my vision and I feel super light-headed and my pulse races. In fact, I just checked. Where my normal pulse is around 60 bpm, I just stood up straight and it immediately went to 128 bpm.

Should I be concerned?

I told this to some friends of mine, one of whom (let's call her C) used to have an ED. C said, "That change in pulse is really serious. They used to take our sitting and standing pulse at the ED clinic and if it went up or down that badly it meant you should be in hospital. From 60 to 128 isn't just a jump, it's scary." 
She knows I had an ED, but as far as she knows, I don't anymore. Well, until she said that. Then I privately told her about it.

And another friend (let's call her E) said "Do you eat?" and I said "Yes!" and another friend (let's call her M) said "Adequately?" and I said "As far as I know!" and then E said "Did you eat today? Yesterday?" and I said "Yes I did."

This isn't a total lie. I "ate" some gum yesterday. And today I ate some chewable multivitamins and these energy chew things, for around 45 calories. Not bad, right? More than I meant to eat, but I was exhausted, and needed the energy. Next time I'll make tea instead, but I didn't want to have to drag myself to the kitchen and put water in my kettle and bring it back to my room and boil the water and blah blah blah. Not that much energy, but I am really tired.

In other news, I've had a deafening headache on and off for the past few days. Quite frustrating. But I'll deal with it, it's not that important. 

Well, I'm going to go clean and exercise and try not to get too tired.

Peace.